trust

i'm disappointed.

i can't, never ever, however, trust you anymore.

not after the second chance i gave.

i'll try to forgive you.

but i won't try to trust you.

sicky pathetic

love is a pathetic thing

love driven your heart nuts

your heart driven your mind loco

your mind drives your body unwell

yea, that happens

4 days of sickness

ukh.

learn!

BARK!

seems like

i'm mentally disturbed

*avoid twitter, it's a poison*

looking for the bright side

yes, i've been crushed

yes, i've been losing myself

yes, i've been angry and sad at the same time

but i'm trying to get up again,

at least, trying to find the bright-side

*if there's nothing bright about it, i can just make up some of it.

1. i don't have to get home soooo late just to catch up

2. i can save up some money to buy something, instead of spend it for dates

3. i don't have to be cranky if i don't get enough attention

well matter of fact, i don't get any attention, is another problem

4. i don't have to be jealous,

and another matter of fact, i AM jealous, but well... never mind.

5. i can find someone else.

that's good right?

anyhow, i'm still trying to look at the bright-side

you hv your brighty brighty times already?

xoxo, M

d'OH

someone asked me

"you must be happy with the news, aren't you?"

that's the stupidest question ever.

I AM NOT HAPPY

COZ THIS IS NOT THE ENDING I WANTED.

satisfied?

sad

i have no courage,

no destination,

no "home",

nothing.

i am a sad little thing

:'|

careless

if you playing your careless-card,

i guess i'm better stay in town alone.

you invited me,

so don't be careless.

bitterswet

I don't want you, but I need you, 

I love you and hate you at the very same time.

bittersweet.

mean

sorry missy,

but let me warn you upfront

that

i can be so mean

really really mean.

:)

p.s.

i won't be sorry.

now i know what numb feels like,

and lifeless.

lover's loveletter

how can you be so cruel

to be so unsure?

i kept on waiting

i keep on hanging

i keep being there

i keep trying to be more of everything good

every now and then i pulled out every strings inside 

to keep me in my place

turns out it's you

who pull me off my silver lining

who stabbed me, from inside

i can't even think about us anymore

i can't even feel the warmth anymore

later, at the end

it will still be me who have to step out

coz i don't have that years brief history of love

don't you know i'm almost inhuman?

i woke up shaking this morning.

you know i love you too much,

but why do you....

SHIT.

don't wanna wait!

a guy who keeps a lady waiting

IS SO CRUEL!

i hate to wait for anything.

i feel like i've been waiting all this time.

GGRRHHH!

traffic F jam

have i ever mention that

I HATE TRAFFIC JAM SO BAD?

yes, i'm living in Jakarta

everyday is the traffic jam day

but today is the special-traffic-jam-day

it's friday, it's raining, it's flooding

and i'm stuck at the office

thank God i have my laptop and colleagues here
cheers guys!
xoxo, M