hate.

yes,

i hate you that much.

that's why i keep turning my back on you.

--

it has come to my logic,

that

it's not about us.

it's about you.

--

you.dont.know

you don't know what you want.

figure it out before you're too late.

--

i will.always.know

nothing left to feel but hollowness.

many times, many times i repeat,

you.don't.have.to.lie

i'll always know.

--

mature.

maturity.

relationship maturation.

hope it goes well.

--

you are you.i am me

i've decided to take it slower

and just go with the flow.

so you can be you and i can be me.

--

always.already gone

can't believe that i remember 

every detail

every reason

every answer for my every why

in time when you already gone.

--

not now.or never

it left me with only two options,

not now.

or

never.

--

escape.from music

it's hard to escape music

when that's what you do to make a living

like,

you wanna break from all of those music

and clear your head

and remember nothing bout you.

--

i.want us

i don't want us to fix 'us'

i just want us to be that two strangers meeting up by accident

and starting all over again by saying
"who the hell are you?"

--

bestfriend said.

"when you will always be you. and he will always be him.

things will always be like this."

"but you don't want you not to be you and he not to be him,right?"

bestfriend explained in a very logical matters.

--

frustrated.

do you know how frustrating it is

not to be able to keep the person you love

happy?

--

nightmare.

can you imagine how it feels

to be asleep for repeatedly just 5 minutes

and keep waking up every 5 minutes

with the same nightmare you can't seem to escape.

horrible.horrible night it was.

--

stable.

the feelings i have are still so unstable

hard to keep it up

but it's harder to keep yours stable.

--

that day.won't come

someday i'll get tired of you

someday i won't understand

someday i'll say i'll leave

i wish that day won't have to come.

--

the thoughts of.losing you

you are not the center of my world.

if we part, there will be a huge hole inside my heart,

that feels like losing your other hand.

and the world will tumbling down,

for sometime.

but that will be all.

you, will lose someone you never thought you're needed for life.

your lost.

--

past.present.future

forgive and move on with your past

then

take care of your present

so it can make to the future.

--

take care.of

take care of your dollars,

and cents will take care of themselves.

one of my dearest friend said.

when i was about to leave the playground.

thank you Andari :)

--

god.only knows

I may not always love you
But long as there are stars above you

 You never need to doubt it
I'll make you so sure about it
God only knows what I'd be without you

If you should ever leave me
Though life would still go on, believe me 

The world could show nothing to me
So what good would livin' do me 

God only knows what I'd be without you 

-- God Only Knows.[the beach boys]

i can't help but remember our good times.

--

cold.

cold.

this situation is way too cold.

:(

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