whatever you said.

whatever you said you're not

that's what you are.

--

don't feel.

stop feeling anything

that actually doesn't exist.

nothing will happen.

--

i told myself : never again.

i guess i didn't listen.

--

son.of a gun.

tell me what's on your mind, son of a gun?

to have done such things.

tell me, lucky son of a gun.

--

melan.choly

melancholy.

in every rain. in every sunday. in every stop.

--

why.s

i tried to answer all of my questions about why.

the hardest one to answer is

'why were you came back.if you doubt us that much?'

--

darkness.

erase and rewind isn't possible.

so i'm gonna start from darkness.

--

i won't be unfair this time.

stay there.

--

can't.get.enough.of.you

can you see that we just can't get enough of each other?

--

mature.

maturity.

relationship maturation.

hope it goes well.

--

slowly.better

i don't mind being like this,

everything is just getting better.

slowly.

better.

--

worth.fighting.for

i just can't stop fighting for us,

coz we're worth fighting for.

as long as i can still do something,

why wouldn't i do it?

--

sincerely.happy.together

to be sincerely happy

together.

that's all.

i'll keep on repeating this in my prayers. 

--

i.want us

i don't want us to fix 'us'

i just want us to be that two strangers meeting up by accident

and starting all over again by saying
"who the hell are you?"

--

bestfriend said.

"when you will always be you. and he will always be him.

things will always be like this."

"but you don't want you not to be you and he not to be him,right?"

bestfriend explained in a very logical matters.

--

logic vs idea.

i know this decision is logical

i know it is

but i just can't bear the idea

--

childhood.

when the hardest decision was about chocolate or vanilla ice cream.

--

keeping them.in my life

i made excuses for them

in order to keep them in my life.

that's just how i cope with things.

how's yours?

--

i can.live with that.but

i can live with that.

but do i have to live with those insecurities alive?

--

you.understand?

"please do understand"

you?

do you understand?

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