whatever you said.

whatever you said you're not

that's what you are.

--

don't feel.

stop feeling anything

that actually doesn't exist.

nothing will happen.

--

i told myself : never again.

i guess i didn't listen.

--

son.of a gun.

tell me what's on your mind, son of a gun?

to have done such things.

tell me, lucky son of a gun.

--

please, don't.

don't even try to love me,

if you still haven't figure out what you're looking for.

--

you don't.really

i was never really in your sight.

you don't see me.

you see right through me.

so you go, and i will be okay.

--

not now.or never

it left me with only two options,

not now.

or

never.

--

bestfriend said.

"when you will always be you. and he will always be him.

things will always be like this."

"but you don't want you not to be you and he not to be him,right?"

bestfriend explained in a very logical matters.

--

logic vs idea.

i know this decision is logical

i know it is

but i just can't bear the idea

--

memories.

the memories are yours to keep

don't let it affect your present

the memories are yours to keep

enjoying them is your secret,

tell nobody.

--

childhood.

when the hardest decision was about chocolate or vanilla ice cream.

--

nightmare.

can you imagine how it feels

to be asleep for repeatedly just 5 minutes

and keep waking up every 5 minutes

with the same nightmare you can't seem to escape.

horrible.horrible night it was.

--

that day.won't come

someday i'll get tired of you

someday i won't understand

someday i'll say i'll leave

i wish that day won't have to come.

--

you.understand?

"please do understand"

you?

do you understand?

--

only.me

me, only

and only me

is not enough for you?

--

things.you see

blizzard views

it's friday.

--

carl & ellie.

how i want to live like carl & ellie.

--

what he hates.

"i hate demanding and judging girls

and i hate when they told me what i have to do"

a friend told me.

you're an eye opener.

i should've known better.

thanks, Veck.

:)

--

erasing past.

i wish i have an eraser

and i can erase the past

then start the new day

stop worrying about the past.

--

are you.happy?

"are you happy?"

i can't believe the sentence i asked the most to people 

now comes back to me.

i.paused

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