i'm in the ocean with diamond

i was in paradise, with diamond.

day 1
i was alone.
and i got a lesson to learn,
no matter how much i hate of being alone
it is good for your brain sometimes,
that heaven is SO close

strawberrysunset + Explosions In The Sky = my idea of heaven
it goes along with the laughter of the kids and also the sound of crashing waves.

day 2
i was with the cheerful working team.
it was cloudy and the rain poured right when the sun about to set
but yet, 
the place is yet rocky perfect.

gloomysunset + Trespassers William = my idea of thinking
i can wrap the angklung sound with the hard-crashing waves

day 3
i was with walrus having some adventures
no sunset this time,
Bali was packed and jammed and all
but yet,
we manage to get back to our old fave place

suddendeath + live music blaring at Legian = my idea of fun
i spill some silly thoughts

day 4
i flew back
and i kept thinking, 
how is it like, to be God, to see the beauty on the earth from above?

turquoise + blue + sparks + warmth = my idea of pretty things
i can't stop gasping to see the beauty!

i love my escaping days.
another lesson to learn:
something that you hate the most
might be the thing you enjoy the most!

i prove it!

i'll be back soon, paradise!
xoxo, M



if you playing your careless-card,
i guess i'm better stay in town alone.

you invited me,
so don't be careless.

getting answer

if you have a question,
and no one can answer it, try this:

you'll be surprised on the answer you'll get.

my answer was:

Copeland - Chin Up
"Back to where we started,
Losing who we were,
Maybe we should only
Tip a bottle back to keep us filled up"

Coldplay - Careful Where You Stand
"Careful where you stand,
Careful where you lay your head.
It's true we're always looking out for one another."

Binocular - Don't Say Goodbye, Say Goodnight
"Don't say goodbye, say goodnight, so it's not over 
and if you try and answer why, it's just over, it's goodbye"

Mew - She Came Home For Christmas
"Come home, come home
It's not me! It can't be! It's not you!
I can't do what I do if we're through"

Keane - Perfect Symmetry
"as the needle, slips into the run out groove
maybe i'll feel it too
maybe you'll feel it too"

maybe it says:
"Go back to where you started, still, careful where you stand, 
but please don't say goodbye, just say goodnight so it's not over. 
now, come home, maybe you'll feel it too."

i don't really know whether it's good or bad.

what's yours?

i shuffled it on my way home. took 5 songs, and a BIG question.



I don't want you, but I need you, 
I love you and hate you at the very same time.




sorry missy,
but let me warn you upfront

i can be so mean
really really mean.


i won't be sorry.


vapour trail

First you look so strong, then you fade away.
The sun will blind my eyes, I love you anyway.

First you form a smile, I watch you for a while.
You are a vapour trail, in a deep blue sky.

Tremble with a sigh, glitter in your eye.
You seem to come and go, I never seem to know.

And all my time, is yours as much as mine.
We never have enough time to show our love.

you are my vapour trail


now i know what numb feels like,

and lifeless.

lover's loveletter

how can you be so cruel
to be so unsure?

i kept on waiting
i keep on hanging
i keep being there
i keep trying to be more of everything good
every now and then i pulled out every strings inside 
to keep me in my place

turns out it's you
who pull me off my silver lining
who stabbed me, from inside

i can't even think about us anymore
i can't even feel the warmth anymore

later, at the end
it will still be me who have to step out
coz i don't have that years brief history of love

don't you know i'm almost inhuman?

i woke up shaking this morning.
you know i love you too much,
but why do you....