11.10.10

don't feel.

stop feeling anything
that actually doesn't exist.

nothing will happen.

--

hate.

yes,
i hate you that much.
that's why i keep turning my back on you.

--
i told myself : never again.
i guess i didn't listen.

--

insecure.

for a security-conscious 
i now feel very insecure.

--

5.10.10

curse.

to bend and break.
to feel what i felt.
i curse.
to make life fair.

in every cell of yours.
you'll feel it.

--


son.of a gun.

tell me what's on your mind, son of a gun?
to have done such things.

tell me, lucky son of a gun.

--

21.9.10

please, don't.

don't even try to love me,
if you still haven't figure out what you're looking for.

--

i'm sorry that:

i haven't even figure out how to forgive you.
and i'm sorry for that.

--

20.9.10

at least.

gently hoping that
not everybody being as fake as it seems.

--

beautiful.specific.details.

you can never replace anyone 
because everyone is made up of such beautiful specific details.


-- from a favorite movie: Before Sunset.

--

13.9.10

my.oh.my

all of the barrier i built
was half crashed just because of your words.
you can still turn my whole world upside down.
again.

not good.

--

25.8.10

19.8.10

drown.

barely breathing.
trouble hanging.
caused by seeing you living your life easily.

--

longing hand.

this hand is waiting for it's owner to come and take it.

--


why.s

i tried to answer all of my questions about why.
the hardest one to answer is
'why were you came back.if you doubt us that much?'

--

look.away.

these shady eyes have decided to look away.


--

darkness.

erase and rewind isn't possible.

so i'm gonna start from darkness.

--

16.8.10

momentarily.

as if i was
momentarily drawing your blank canvas.

just.momentarily
and.how i hate that

--

you don't.really

i was never really in your sight.
you don't see me.
you see right through me.
so you go, and i will be okay.

--

14.8.10

this is when.

when everything crash and burn
it's been a beautiful lie.
yesterday.today.tomorrow.
fade away.

--

11.8.10

dear friends.with broken hearts.

if you have to crawl,
then crawl.
it's better than no movement at all.
: )

--
it has come to my logic,
that
it's not about us.
it's about you.

--

you.dont.know

you don't know what you want.
figure it out before you're too late.

--

i will.always.know

nothing left to feel but hollowness.

many times, many times i repeat,
you.don't.have.to.lie
i'll always know.

--

9.8.10

the most.comforting.place

on top of everything,
to be in your arms, is the most comforting place.
:)

--

2.8.10

you are you.i am me

i've decided to take it slower
and just go with the flow.
so you can be you and i can be me.

--

30.7.10

sad.sad.sad.

it feels sad,
when you have time,
and we don't have us.

--

your name.

every cell in my body keeps on calling your name
even in my sleep.

--

sunday.for ears

our sundays were beautiful
so i made a special one for you this sunday
for your ears :)

--

worth.fighting.for

i just can't stop fighting for us,
coz we're worth fighting for.
as long as i can still do something,
why wouldn't i do it?

--

always.already gone

can't believe that i remember 
every detail
every reason
every answer for my every why
in time when you already gone.

--

29.7.10

don't do.if you.

but at the end,
i don't want you to do something you don't want to.
i heart our times, walrus.

--

sincerely.happy.together

to be sincerely happy
together.


that's all.
i'll keep on repeating this in my prayers. 

--

don't pretend.there's hope

no no no
i don't want you pretending
you've done too much, i don't want you to be one again
i'm asking for you to believe
just believe
there.is.still.hope

don't give up on hope.
been a very long way,
we'll soon be normal.

--

not now.or never

it left me with only two options,
not now.
or
never.

--

half.life

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down
lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind
-- walrus

'cause lately something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life,
without you I am breaking down
wake me, let me see the daylight
save me from this half-life
let's you and I escape
escape from time

come on lets fall in love again
-- whale


half-life.
duncan sheik.

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