i told myself : never again.

i guess i didn't listen.

--

please, don't.

don't even try to love me,

if you still haven't figure out what you're looking for.

--

at least.

gently hoping that

not everybody being as fake as it seems.

--

beautiful.specific.details.

you can never replace anyone 

because everyone is made up of such beautiful specific details.

-- from a favorite movie: Before Sunset.

--

melan.choly

melancholy.

in every rain. in every sunday. in every stop.

--

i woke up.and.

tell me the difference of hope and dream.

--

drown.

barely breathing.

trouble hanging.

caused by seeing you living your life easily.

--

why.s

i tried to answer all of my questions about why.

the hardest one to answer is

'why were you came back.if you doubt us that much?'

--

not now.or never

it left me with only two options,

not now.

or

never.

--

i.want us

i don't want us to fix 'us'

i just want us to be that two strangers meeting up by accident

and starting all over again by saying
"who the hell are you?"

--

bestfriend said.

"when you will always be you. and he will always be him.

things will always be like this."

"but you don't want you not to be you and he not to be him,right?"

bestfriend explained in a very logical matters.

--

childhood.

when the hardest decision was about chocolate or vanilla ice cream.

--

that day.won't come

someday i'll get tired of you

someday i won't understand

someday i'll say i'll leave

i wish that day won't have to come.

--

i can.live with that.but

i can live with that.

but do i have to live with those insecurities alive?

--

it is.a was

i was missing you badly and i was wanting to meet you badly

was.

now i'm scared that i will let my feelings out.

i'm too disappointed to feel happy.

--

freak folk.

what would i want?

sky.

-- Animal Collective

--

only.me

me, only

and only me

is not enough for you?

--

where.are.you

where are you

i've been looking for you anywhere.

--

i'm.home

longing for a tight hug and a whisper

"i'm home"

--

walking.after you

Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds dreaming aloud.

Things just won't do without you, matter of fact.

i'm on your back.

--