hello.again.

got my life back on track.

let's live.

--

whatever you said.

whatever you said you're not

that's what you are.

--

don't feel.

stop feeling anything

that actually doesn't exist.

nothing will happen.

--

hate.

yes,

i hate you that much.

that's why i keep turning my back on you.

--

i told myself : never again.

i guess i didn't listen.

--

insecure.

for a security-conscious 

i now feel very insecure.

--

curse.

to bend and break.

to feel what i felt.

i curse.

to make life fair.

in every cell of yours.

you'll feel it.

--

son.of a gun.

tell me what's on your mind, son of a gun?

to have done such things.

tell me, lucky son of a gun.

--

please, don't.

don't even try to love me,

if you still haven't figure out what you're looking for.

--

i'm sorry that:

i haven't even figure out how to forgive you.

and i'm sorry for that.

--

at least.

gently hoping that

not everybody being as fake as it seems.

--

beautiful.specific.details.

you can never replace anyone 

because everyone is made up of such beautiful specific details.

-- from a favorite movie: Before Sunset.

--

my.oh.my

all of the barrier i built

was half crashed just because of your words.

you can still turn my whole world upside down.

again.

not good.

--

melan.choly

melancholy.

in every rain. in every sunday. in every stop.

--

i woke up.and.

tell me the difference of hope and dream.

--

drown.

barely breathing.

trouble hanging.

caused by seeing you living your life easily.

--

longing hand.

this hand is waiting for it's owner to come and take it.

--

why.s

i tried to answer all of my questions about why.

the hardest one to answer is

'why were you came back.if you doubt us that much?'

--

look.away.

these shady eyes have decided to look away.

--

darkness.

erase and rewind isn't possible.

so i'm gonna start from darkness.

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