i'm in the ocean with diamond

i was in paradise, with diamond.

day 1

i was alone.

and i got a lesson to learn,

no matter how much i hate of being alone

it is good for your brain sometimes,

and...

that heaven is SO close

strawberrysunset + Explosions In The Sky = my idea of heaven

it goes along with the laughter of the kids and also the sound of crashing waves.

day 2

i was with the cheerful working team.

it was cloudy and the rain poured right when the sun about to set

but yet, 

the place is yet rocky perfect.

gloomysunset + Trespassers William = my idea of thinking

i can wrap the angklung sound with the hard-crashing waves

day 3

i was with walrus having some adventures

no sunset this time,

Bali was packed and jammed and all

but yet,

we manage to get back to our old fave place

suddendeath + live music blaring at Legian = my idea of fun

i spill some silly thoughts

day 4

i flew back

and i kept thinking, 

how is it like, to be God, to see the beauty on the earth from above?

turquoise + blue + sparks + warmth = my idea of pretty things

i can't stop gasping to see the beauty!

i love my escaping days.

another lesson to learn:

something that you hate the most

might be the thing you enjoy the most!

i prove it!

:)

i'll be back soon, paradise!

xoxo, M

careless

if you playing your careless-card,

i guess i'm better stay in town alone.

you invited me,

so don't be careless.

getting answer

if you have a question,

and no one can answer it, try this:

SHUFFLE YOUR MUSIC PLAYER!

you'll be surprised on the answer you'll get.

my answer was:

Copeland - Chin Up

"Back to where we started,

Losing who we were,

Maybe we should only

Tip a bottle back to keep us filled up"

Coldplay - Careful Where You Stand

"Careful where you stand,

Careful where you lay your head.

It's true we're always looking out for one another."

Binocular - Don't Say Goodbye, Say Goodnight

"Don't say goodbye, say goodnight, so it's not over 

and if you try and answer why, it's just over, it's goodbye"

Mew - She Came Home For Christmas

"Come home, come home

It's not me! It can't be! It's not you!

I can't do what I do if we're through"

Keane - Perfect Symmetry

"as the needle, slips into the run out groove

maybe i'll feel it too

maybe you'll feel it too"

maybe it says:

"Go back to where you started, still, careful where you stand, 

but please don't say goodbye, just say goodnight so it's not over. 

now, come home, maybe you'll feel it too."

i don't really know whether it's good or bad.

what's yours?

P.S.

i shuffled it on my way home. took 5 songs, and a BIG question.

bitterswet

I don't want you, but I need you, 

I love you and hate you at the very same time.

bittersweet.

mean

sorry missy,

but let me warn you upfront

that

i can be so mean

really really mean.

:)

p.s.

i won't be sorry.

...

i'm out of tears and words.

vapour trail

First you look so strong, then you fade away.

The sun will blind my eyes, I love you anyway.

First you form a smile, I watch you for a while.

You are a vapour trail, in a deep blue sky.

Tremble with a sigh, glitter in your eye.

You seem to come and go, I never seem to know.

And all my time, is yours as much as mine.

We never have enough time to show our love.

you are my vapour trail

now i know what numb feels like,

and lifeless.

lover's loveletter

how can you be so cruel

to be so unsure?

i kept on waiting

i keep on hanging

i keep being there

i keep trying to be more of everything good

every now and then i pulled out every strings inside 

to keep me in my place

turns out it's you

who pull me off my silver lining

who stabbed me, from inside

i can't even think about us anymore

i can't even feel the warmth anymore

later, at the end

it will still be me who have to step out

coz i don't have that years brief history of love

don't you know i'm almost inhuman?

i woke up shaking this morning.

you know i love you too much,

but why do you....

SHIT.