Little Puppet Show

hello.again.

2011-01-05T18:46:00.000+07:00

got my life back on track.

let's live.

whatever you said.

2010-10-19T22:46:00.000+07:00

whatever you said you're not

that's what you are.

don't feel.

2010-10-11T20:45:00.000+07:00

stop feeling anything

that actually doesn't exist.

nothing will happen.

hate.

2010-10-11T20:31:00.000+07:00

yes,

i hate you that much.

that's why i keep turning my back on you.

2010-10-11T20:18:00.000+07:00

i told myself : never again.

i guess i didn't listen.

insecure.

2010-10-11T20:11:00.000+07:00

for a security-conscious

i now feel very insecure.

curse.

2010-10-05T23:25:00.000+07:00

to bend and break.

to feel what i felt.

i curse.

to make life fair.

in every cell of yours.

you'll feel it.

son.of a gun.

2010-10-05T23:14:00.000+07:00

tell me what's on your mind, son of a gun?

to have done such things.

tell me, lucky son of a gun.

please, don't.

2010-09-21T23:08:00.000+07:00

don't even try to love me,

if you still haven't figure out what you're looking for.

i'm sorry that:

2010-09-21T21:36:00.000+07:00

i haven't even figure out how to forgive you.

and i'm sorry for that.

at least.

2010-09-20T23:22:00.000+07:00

gently hoping that

not everybody being as fake as it seems.

beautiful.specific.details.

2010-09-20T22:57:00.000+07:00

you can never replace anyone

because everyone is made up of such beautiful specific details.

-- from a favorite movie: Before Sunset.

my.oh.my

2010-09-13T16:20:00.000+07:00

all of the barrier i built

was half crashed just because of your words.

you can still turn my whole world upside down.

again.

not good.

melan.choly

2010-08-25T22:24:00.000+07:00

melancholy.

in every rain. in every sunday. in every stop.

i woke up.and.

2010-08-23T20:50:00.000+07:00

tell me the difference of hope and dream.

drown.

2010-08-19T17:14:00.000+07:00

barely breathing.

trouble hanging.

caused by seeing you living your life easily.

longing hand.

2010-08-19T16:59:00.000+07:00

this hand is waiting for it's owner to come and take it.

why.s

2010-08-19T16:50:00.000+07:00

i tried to answer all of my questions about why.

the hardest one to answer is

'why were you came back.if you doubt us that much?'

look.away.

2010-08-19T16:10:00.000+07:00

these shady eyes have decided to look away.

darkness.

2010-08-19T14:14:00.001+07:00

erase and rewind isn't possible.

so i'm gonna start from darkness.

i.heard.you

2010-08-18T17:37:00.001+07:00

i heard you.

do you heard yourself?

momentarily.

2010-08-16T19:40:00.000+07:00

as if i was

momentarily drawing your blank canvas.

just.momentarily

and.how i hate that

you don't.really

2010-08-16T13:44:00.000+07:00

i was never really in your sight.

you don't see me.

you see right through me.

so you go, and i will be okay.

this is when.

2010-08-14T16:40:00.000+07:00

when everything crash and burn

it's been a beautiful lie.

yesterday.today.tomorrow.

fade away.

dear friends.with broken hearts.

2010-08-11T21:47:00.000+07:00

if you have to crawl,

then crawl.

it's better than no movement at all.

: )

2010-08-11T21:36:00.000+07:00

it has come to my logic,

that

it's not about us.

it's about you.

you.dont.know

2010-08-11T17:48:00.000+07:00

you don't know what you want.

figure it out before you're too late.

i will.always.know

2010-08-11T11:14:00.000+07:00

nothing left to feel but hollowness.

many times, many times i repeat,

you.don't.have.to.lie

i'll always know.

i...

2010-08-10T22:17:00.000+07:00

i.know.everything

the most.comforting.place

2010-08-09T12:55:00.000+07:00

on top of everything,

to be in your arms, is the most comforting place.

2010-08-04T21:57:00.000+07:00

i won't be unfair this time.

stay there.

can't.get.enough.of.you

2010-08-04T21:31:00.000+07:00

can you see that we just can't get enough of each other?

mature.

2010-08-04T21:17:00.000+07:00

maturity.

relationship maturation.

hope it goes well.

slowly.better

2010-08-04T20:08:00.000+07:00

i don't mind being like this,

everything is just getting better.

slowly.

better.

you are you.i am me

2010-08-02T14:41:00.000+07:00

i've decided to take it slower

and just go with the flow.

so you can be you and i can be me.

sad.sad.sad.

2010-07-30T21:28:00.000+07:00

it feels sad,

when you have time,

and we don't have us.

your name.

2010-07-30T20:32:00.000+07:00

every cell in my body keeps on calling your name

even in my sleep.

sunday.for ears

2010-07-30T20:16:00.000+07:00

our sundays were beautiful

so i made a special one for you this sunday

for your ears :)

worth.fighting.for

2010-07-30T19:49:00.000+07:00

i just can't stop fighting for us,

coz we're worth fighting for.

as long as i can still do something,

why wouldn't i do it?

always.already gone

2010-07-30T14:22:00.000+07:00

can't believe that i remember

every detail

every reason

every answer for my every why

in time when you already gone.

don't do.if you.

2010-07-29T22:53:00.000+07:00

but at the end,

i don't want you to do something you don't want to.

i heart our times, walrus.

sincerely.happy.together

2010-07-29T20:49:00.000+07:00

to be sincerely happy

together.

that's all.

i'll keep on repeating this in my prayers.

don't pretend.there's hope

2010-07-29T20:42:00.000+07:00

no no no

i don't want you pretending

you've done too much, i don't want you to be one again

i'm asking for you to believe

just believe

there.is.still.hope

don't give up on hope.

been a very long way,

we'll soon be normal.

not now.or never

2010-07-29T19:38:00.001+07:00

it left me with only two options,

not now.

never.

half.life

2010-07-29T18:42:00.000+07:00

maybe, I need to see the daylight

to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down

lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

-- walrus

'cause lately something here don't feel right

this is just a half-life,
without you I am breaking down

wake me, let me see the daylight
save me from this half-life
let's you and I escape
escape from time

come on lets fall in love again

-- whale

half-life.

duncan sheik.

escape.from music

2010-07-29T17:01:00.000+07:00

it's hard to escape music

when that's what you do to make a living

like,

you wanna break from all of those music

and clear your head

and remember nothing bout you.

i.want us

2010-07-29T16:21:00.000+07:00

i don't want us to fix 'us'

i just want us to be that two strangers meeting up by accident

and starting all over again by saying
"who the hell are you?"

bestfriend said.

2010-07-29T14:06:00.000+07:00

"when you will always be you. and he will always be him.

things will always be like this."

"but you don't want you not to be you and he not to be him,right?"

bestfriend explained in a very logical matters.

logic vs idea.

2010-07-29T13:23:00.000+07:00

i know this decision is logical

i know it is

but i just can't bear the idea

frustrated.

2010-07-29T12:54:00.000+07:00

do you know how frustrating it is

not to be able to keep the person you love

happy?

memories.

2010-07-28T14:56:00.000+07:00

the memories are yours to keep

don't let it affect your present

the memories are yours to keep

enjoying them is your secret,

tell nobody.

how much.i miss the rainbow

2010-07-27T23:25:00.000+07:00

i dreamed about the ocean wave in rainbow colors.

childhood.

2010-07-27T22:45:00.000+07:00

when the hardest decision was about chocolate or vanilla ice cream.

nightmare.

2010-07-27T21:48:00.000+07:00

can you imagine how it feels

to be asleep for repeatedly just 5 minutes

and keep waking up every 5 minutes

with the same nightmare you can't seem to escape.

horrible.horrible night it was.

stable.

2010-07-27T21:22:00.000+07:00

the feelings i have are still so unstable

hard to keep it up

but it's harder to keep yours stable.

that day.won't come

2010-07-27T21:03:00.000+07:00

someday i'll get tired of you

someday i won't understand

someday i'll say i'll leave

i wish that day won't have to come.

keeping them.in my life

2010-07-21T12:01:00.000+07:00

i made excuses for them

in order to keep them in my life.

that's just how i cope with things.

how's yours?

i can.live with that.but

2010-07-15T18:12:00.000+07:00

i can live with that.

but do i have to live with those insecurities alive?

it is.a was

2010-07-14T19:52:00.000+07:00

i was missing you badly and i was wanting to meet you badly

was.

now i'm scared that i will let my feelings out.

i'm too disappointed to feel happy.

freak folk.

2010-07-14T19:34:00.000+07:00

what would i want?

sky.

-- Animal Collective

you.understand?

2010-07-14T12:18:00.000+07:00

"please do understand"

you?

do you understand?

the thoughts of.losing you

2010-07-13T21:14:00.000+07:00

you are not the center of my world.

if we part, there will be a huge hole inside my heart,

that feels like losing your other hand.

and the world will tumbling down,

for sometime.

but that will be all.

you, will lose someone you never thought you're needed for life.

your lost.

past.present.future

2010-07-13T12:01:00.000+07:00

forgive and move on with your past

then

take care of your present

so it can make to the future.

only.me

2010-07-13T11:24:00.000+07:00

me, only

and only me

is not enough for you?

no one.else

2010-07-12T11:25:00.000+07:00

it's gotta be you

no one can deal with me better than you.

where.are.you

2010-07-12T09:40:00.000+07:00

where are you

i've been looking for you anywhere.

i'm.home

2010-07-12T09:36:00.000+07:00

longing for a tight hug and a whisper

"i'm home"

write.some love

2010-07-09T22:18:00.000+07:00

in the huge need some hand-writing love letters.

murderer.

2010-07-09T22:14:00.000+07:00

hate.hate.hate

i always hate the truth.

and the worst,

i hate to murder the truth.

walking.after you

2010-07-09T22:08:00.000+07:00

Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds dreaming aloud.

Things just won't do without you, matter of fact.

i'm on your back.

still.lie

2010-07-09T15:52:00.000+07:00

i thought we've passed the insecurity issues.

things.you see

2010-07-09T13:44:00.000+07:00

blizzard views

it's friday.

some drawings.

2010-07-08T21:13:00.000+07:00

let's get back to do some drawings

too much to think.

cry.cry.

sunset.from my window

how i love to draw (again).

pencil. drawing pen. marker.

take care.of

2010-07-08T20:54:00.000+07:00

take care of your dollars,

and cents will take care of themselves.

one of my dearest friend said.

when i was about to leave the playground.

thank you Andari :)

i should.

2010-07-08T18:56:00.000+07:00

be a rainbow in someone else's cloud

-- maya angelou's

a pretty quote a dear friend gave to me

:')

thanks lala.

look.look.look up

2010-07-07T19:11:00.000+07:00

look look

flower.power

2010-07-07T18:59:00.000+07:00

one day i'll stroll around in flowers

and have a lovely time in it

god.only knows

2010-07-06T19:45:00.000+07:00

I may not always love you
But long as there are stars above you

You never need to doubt it
I'll make you so sure about it
God only knows what I'd be without you

If you should ever leave me
Though life would still go on, believe me

The world could show nothing to me
So what good would livin' do me

God only knows what I'd be without you

-- God Only Knows.[the beach boys]

i can't help but remember our good times.

i.said

2010-07-06T17:24:00.000+07:00

take your moment away from me

i didn't imagine it would be this hard.

but it seems so easy for you.

cold.

2010-07-06T16:58:00.000+07:00

cold.

this situation is way too cold.

carl & ellie.

2010-07-05T21:49:00.000+07:00

how i want to live like carl & ellie.

what he hates.

2010-07-05T21:41:00.000+07:00

"i hate demanding and judging girls

and i hate when they told me what i have to do"

a friend told me.

you're an eye opener.

i should've known better.

thanks, Veck.

erasing past.

2010-07-05T21:37:00.000+07:00

i wish i have an eraser

and i can erase the past

then start the new day

stop worrying about the past.

let's get to know each other.again

2010-07-05T21:27:00.000+07:00

the thought crossed my mind

turns out,

we haven't even have time to know each other

we're too busy dealing with each other's flaws

what if i say,

"let's get to know each other, again?"

are you.happy?

2010-07-05T21:19:00.000+07:00

"are you happy?"

i can't believe the sentence i asked the most to people

now comes back to me.

i.paused

when.to stop

2010-07-05T21:11:00.000+07:00

telling yourself to

"know when to stop"

is the hardest thing to do.

do you know when to stop?

please.

2010-07-05T12:23:00.000+07:00

don't let go

i can't let go.

be.better

2010-07-05T11:57:00.000+07:00

let's try to be better person

we are capable

i have faith on us.

do you.ever wonder?

2010-07-04T16:33:00.000+07:00

how hard i tried to hold these tears that about to fall?

you.would fall

2010-07-04T16:19:00.000+07:00

what would you do

if you have trouble seeing

and there are no lights nor hands to hold?

you would fall.

exactly.

done.friggin tired

2010-07-04T13:27:00.000+07:00

if you say things that i felt are not important,

then surely you can't accept me for who i am.

mad. disappointed. sad.

it's time for me to stop trying.

so fuckin' tired.

into.the ocean

2010-07-01T21:30:00.000+07:00

it's like...

being forced to swim in the ocean.

carry on.

bring it on.

that's why.

2010-07-01T09:59:00.000+07:00

i know you

that's why i'm insecure

and i know you know how it feels.

it's not a goodbye.i'll see you soon.

2010-06-28T21:29:00.000+07:00

i don't wanna go actually i don't wanna go

but i need to spread my wings and fly higher

this is home.

here will always be my home

no matter how far i go.

:')

quite similar.souls

2010-06-28T20:57:00.000+07:00

we have things we want to forget

we have things we hide

we have things we regret

we have things that we wish we could change

looking back and forth

we're having quite similar souls.

let's do compromise,

i'll take yours and you'll take mine

i'll understand yours and you'll understand mine

so we can live normally altogether.

acceptance.

2010-06-26T23:43:00.000+07:00

acceptance.

well it is sucks.

but however it's needed.

i know how it feels like.

and i'm still doing it.

you? ready to learn another lesson?

we are.just alike

2010-06-25T23:00:00.000+07:00

we are just alike.

we both lied. we both made mistakes.

nothing more than understanding,

cause i did what you did, and i admit what you admit.

nothing more that i want, other than understanding

we are just alike.

we're human.

let's just learn to be better.

look.closer.

2010-06-25T21:55:00.000+07:00

if something goes so normal,

there must be something really wrong.

look closer.

i know i shouldn't think like that.

have you ever think like that?

trust.issue

2010-06-25T14:10:00.000+07:00

"if you can't trust your partner,

then why do you have to hold on to the relationship?"

a wise man once said.

trust issue is quite frustrating.

huh,friends?

2010-06-24T15:49:00.000+07:00

sometimes,

people that you think they're your friends,

are better to be kept as acquaintances.

that's all.

so,

i'm free from those unnecessary chit-chats.

that's good.

so long 'friends' .